I will not play on CENSORED for at least a week (01/11/2011 – 06/11/2011) for site-related & site-specific tilt issues resulting in an already tilt-prone mind-set even before sessions.
I have problems w/ CENSORED's software (cumbersome), number of players playing at my level (not enough), table player / flop seen % (too low), table animation (irritating), design (tiring to my eyes), (short) time left to think - I think that's all. Everything is cluttered, messed up, unclear and all the players seem to be regulars {regs}; I turn out to be the fish b/c nothing I do is good enough to fucking win (typical irrational tilt thinking).
I have free will. I do not have to play on CENSORED, or on any other site. I am free to do whatever the fuck I want. I do not even have to play poker. I must develop a fucking mental resilience.
I just don’t want to play on that site. I developed a paranoia, a fear, a negative anticipation of doom, an “I know it”, an “I can’t”, a self-fulfilling vision of self-sabotage even if I just think about playing on CENSORED. All these smaller rooms have a fucking poor software and shitty player base.
